Be P two

I'm getting tired
I want to sleep
I'm very tired
Of counting sheep
And constant thoughts
That intrude and pain
And emotions that
I cannot contain

I'm getting sleepy
I want to rest
I'm sick of this feeling
Hurting my chest
I want to be happy
I don't want to frown
But I know if I'm up
I'll surely fall down

I'm just so exhausted
I don't want to try
To care about if
I live or if I die
These thoughts that plague me
And make me squirm
They make me not
Want to live and learn

My heart just keeps racing
I can hardly nap
I'm tossing and turning
Trying to close the gap
Between sleeping and waking
Dream states and facts
While my mind's train keeps running
And getting off track

I'm so awake now
I feel so alive
And now I ask myself
Why I'd ever want to die
Why I'd throw away
The friendships I've made
And the memories of them
Of the times we've played

And through this rising feeling
I find deep inside
That I'm empty and fruitless
And trying to hide
The emotions that present themselves
That are honest and true
That I try to drown out
For me and for you

Because...

I'm so very tired
So, now can I sleep?
Can you please keep counting
Those fluffy white sheep?
Can you forget about me
And all that I was,
So you don't blame that pain
On that I did it just because?

MAV